Just booked one of these, arriving in 3-4 months time...

The drive

Let me just break this down as to what's going on right now. This is also a good opportunity to just probably announce that this blog will probably need to be changed or renamed. Its either one or the other cuz now I've already started work and it seems like I don't even have the time to sleep, let alone blog. So maybe you could just imagine how limited my time is right now.

Let me just update on my job as well. I'm currently working in KL for Marcus Evans, a leading events and information company from UK. I'm lazy right now so will not go into details about the company which you could just google easily. Anyway, I'm working as a sales executive there and my job scope is basically doing A LOT of research and pitching LOTS of senior level managers to participate in the company's conferences and training events. It probably sounds like an easy job but trust me, it is a really really stressful job. However, I'm kinda emotionally attached to the company right now although its only 1 week. The thing is, I just really like the working environment where everyone here is just soooo friendly. (apart from the receptionist who's always looked like I killed her dad or something) It's just the different mentallity and culture that is in the office I would say. That's not all, they even have events once in a while and tomorrow will be the annual dinner while next weekend they will be having a sports carnival. I've actually given up the opportunity to work in Public Bank with a basic salary of RM2800 because of this - the environment, the company, the people and most importantly the learning opportunity.

Also, for some time now, I'm kinda in a very complicated situation with the girl which I really like a lot. I tried but I don't think I was good enough for her, but then again, I get the impression that she doesn't even like me or care about me so yeah, (if you do, please just let me know, anything, any lil signs will do, please, I'm dying to know how you feel) I'm just hanging around doing nothing I guess. Anyway, I have never ever regretted for liking her so much, and if she doesn't like me, what can I do? She was only being friendly to me and I probably misunderstood her all along? I don't know? She also seems happy now, which is kinda sad for me knowing that I can't even make her happy. And I don't want to scare her off by trying to contact her always. So as bad as it may sound, I'm gonna take a huge step back or MAYBE the last step back so this probably is it. Probably just being friends is the best option.

Anyway, my main motive now is just to really improve myself as a whole . I'm also now contemplating on shifting out to stay with my uncle near Maluri which allows me to save time on traveling from Kajang to KL for work so yea, if my uncle says "yes", I will be packed and off to Maluri for until god-knows-when. And that's probably all that is going on.

I don't want to be happy,
I don't want to be successful,
I don't want to be recognized...

"I NEED TO BE HAPPY, I NEED TO BE SUCCESSFUL, I NEED TO BE RECOGNIZED"

21

I'm officially 21 years old now so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! ... and as a present, god gave me a full time job =.= Yupz, I'm gonna be starting work today so it'll be great! Anyway, thanks everyone for all their wishes, really appreciate it and I hope this'll be a great day for everyone :)

HURRAH!!! I JUST GOT EMPLOYED!!!
starting work on 30th November

*just celebrating with myself*

A fake smile, hides everything :)

Mind popping

So tomorrow is the big day for me with the exam. Really stressed out now, its like my head is being squeezed so hard that it wants to pop. Don't really know what to write out now cuz I'm just really really stressed. Besides, I have been trying to relax a bit by listening to my new addictive song Wedding Dress by TaeYang. Stupidly, because it was an emo or sad song which you can watch from my previous post, so it just made me felt worst. Anyway, I'm gonna continue reading my notes before I head to bed.

G-Dragon & TaeYang

Just few days ago I came across this song by Big Bang's duo of G-Dragon and Tae Yang performing in the Mnet Korean Music Awards on Channel V. Definitely a very nice song with great feel and tempo to it. Also, do check out Tae Yang's latest Where U At and Wedding Dress.

G-Dragon ft. TaeYang - Korean Dream


TaeYang - Where U At?


TaeYang - Wedding Dress

Almost end of November

Just a simple update here on what's going on now. So right, really really busy month trying to get a job so haven't done much posting lately as well. Actually, getting a job for me now is like really urgent as in do-or-die for me because you probably know I have been slacking for a very long time now so its really time to really get started. So one of my goal set for this month was to get a job and now its already almost end of the month. However, I've been attached to a UK company named Marcus Evans right now, going through trainings and hopefully, I will be able to pass me exams and get the job by December.

Been through a hell of interviews as well getting this far now. First, there was the phone screening interview where I was caught off guard (me sleeping), then 1st interview and 2nd interview before these trainings and exams which I have to pass later on. Its actually a sales telemarketing job, one which I never expected to be in because SERIOUSLY, if you know me well, you would know I'm not a very vocal person and neither am I a good communicator. However, this job is really interesting (more on this next time) and it really is a challenge for me to improve myself, learn, develop and train to be a better person. BUT then again, jobs not confirmed yet, so that's just what I'm thinking right now.

And also, because its basically a sales job. So if your good, you tend to earn a lot on your commissions so I'm really motivated by the amount I could earn so with that maybe I could use it to later start a business of my own? who knows? That's what I'm actually planning now... But again, just dreams. Still a long long way to go till I reach this spot I'm dreaming of. Then again, I will try my best to acheive whatever I can.

"TIME is your life. When its gone, ITS GONE!"

Above is actually quoted by my trainer who was the Sales Director in Marcus Evans. It really slapped me across the face and made me realize something. Honestly, I kinda feel like I wasted sooooooooo much time. Gonna be 22 next year and still haven't even earn my first 1000 bucks which is really really bad. I always wanted to start out early, be succesful at a young age, earn big bucks, drive big car, get recognition and stuff like that but 22 already, damn...

what have I been doing...

Gonna push hard now...